So I am definitely boy-dumb.  The guy that I'd been lusting after for the past 8 (or so) months wants to be my homie.  There were signs I tell you.  Very distinct signs that he was at least a little attracted as well.  I was very encouraged for a while there, but I've given up.  If we didn't work together, I'd up and ask him to a movie or something (you know, shit or get off the pot), but I just don't want to risk work-place awkwardness.  We hang, we drink, but there's never any sweet sweet lovin.  WTF.  Oh well.

Then, the bouncer at the bar we like to go to got my phone number on my B-day.  He's nice enough, but I was more interested in him being interested than I am in actually dating him.  He called a couple of times, but he'd never say "hey, you wanna hang out?"  It's all very vague and cryptic so I completely lost interest.  Then, I get a text message "Too bad.  I was really interested."  I'm a little annoyed.  If he was interested, wouldn't he have the brains to say "hey, you wanna hang out?"  I don't feel like playing games, so moving on.

Then there's CA guy.  I've known him since I was 14.  He was my first real boyfriend (snogging, holding hands, and all that exclusively with each other).  I went to visit him in SF and it was highschool all over again.  Insti-chemistry.  We did things that we didn't do in high school because we were too young.  We talk a lot more now than before my trip.  He's great, but he's in CA.  I know I don't want a long-distance relationship.  Hell, I don't know if I'm really ready for a relationship period.  Maybe "ready" is not the right word.  Do I want a relationship right now?  

Anyhow, the moral of this story is, I'm boy-dumb. 

I work in the grocery business and recently there has been a huge E. coli O157 scare in the Midwest.  I've read articles that report that 130,000+ pounds of beef is being *needlessly* destroyed. 

Beef that is cooked to 160 degrees Fahrenheit (well done, browned with juices running clear) is completely safe to eat.  At this temperature E. coli O157 is destroyed. 

THE MAJORITY OF NEWS OUTLETS ARE NOT REPORTING THIS INFOMATION.  Instead, they use shock/scare tactics and encourage people to throw the meat away or return it (where it will inevitably be thrown away). 

We waste, while people all around the world (even here in the U.S.) starve to death. 

I encourage everyone to email, write, or call their local newspapers and/or news stations with this information.  Below I included the email that I sent to several outlets.  You may use it as a template, or write your own. 

I just hope that the word gets out and that we think before we waste.

Thank you all for reading,

Sabrina

Good afternoon,

Thank you for taking the time to read my email.

I would just like to express my extreme disgust with your station for your coverage of the E. coli situation

Why does no one mention that the meat is perfectly safe to eat as long as it is cooked properly?  If the meat is cooked to 160 degrees Fahrenheit (internal temperature, well done) any potential E. coli bacteria is destroyed. 

Thousands of pounds of food are being destroyed while people, both in the United States and in other countries, starve.  This is wasteful and negligent on your part for not reporting all of the pertinent information.  Your decision to spin this story using shock tactics is despicable.

I hope everyone at your station sleeps well tonight, bellies full and minds empty, while the less fortunate suffer.

Thank you for your time

Well, I think it's official.  We've fizzled.  It's not going to work.

It's really too bad.  We have a lot in common, he's very gentlemanly, he's a genuine person, but it just doesn't feel right.  There's no fire, no pop, no real chemistry.  Quite frankly I'm bored.  It doesn't help that I'm still pretty attracted to someone else. 

I think part of my problem is I'm going from one passionless/sexless relationship to another and, damn it, I'm young.  I want sex, I want passion, I want some damned heat!  Do I have a stamp on my forehead that says "Over-sensitive, asexual, submissive types apply here"?  
This begs the question, what does that say about me?  I want to be with someone who is dominant, masculine, confident,  but I always end up in the Alpha position.  I seem to always be the pursuer and never the pursued.  

*ugh*

I feel like poo.  I think I'm like that old man that sits on his porch and gets a soar knee so he knows a storm's a'comin.  Except, my joints don't hurt, I just feel like shit.  This happened the last time we were going to get a bunch of snow.  I just feel feverish and my head doesn't feel attached.  Bazaar!

In other news, I've had a really shitty week (I'm including the end of last week).  So, on Wednesday, my motherboard on my work computer crashed.  That was a bit of a bummer because I can't do my job without the darn thing.  Then, on Thursday, we had major technical problems with the site.  Orders weren't processing correctly and all sorts of shenanigans.  Next, Deb calls and says "Oh, sorry hun, I forgot to do your taxes."  Um...pardon me?  Say what!?  She was an accountant for 30 years or so and she said that she would do my taxes as my Christmas present.  Then she forgets about me.  Bitch...  That's taken care at least (I hope it's all right).  
Saturday, at least, was great.  I went to Cold Ones to watch UFC69 with terribleteresa.  Some of the fights were very, very, very disappointing (Diego vs. Kos?  Lame!).  Poor Teresa was pleasantly drunk, but not so pleasantly torn about the Serra/GSP fight.  She is cute when she's all confused :)
Monday brought bad news and very good news.  There's something wrong with my car.  It makes a scary noise.  The mechanic said there wasn't anything he could really do about it now.  It just sorta has to break and be replaced...?  I don't know how that works, but Tim trusts these guys and I have no useful knowledge about cars, so I trust them too.  The good news (having nothing to do with my car) is that my dog is in "excellent" shape for her age.  I had to take her to the vet for a physical and another vaccination.  She didn't like when they had to take her temperature (so that's what alien abduction looks like).  She's going in to have her teeth cleaned on Friday (the 13th, dun dun dun!!).  I'm not typically superstitious, but who knows, I'm a little worried.

Anyhow, back to "work" and feeling like poo :(